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Friend Or Foe: Chapter 16 What Do You Mean By 'No'
In the Last Chapter:
Tanner and I. In one room. Together. A-fucking-lone. Sooooooooooo awkward. “Um, Violet, can I sit... on the bed?” she asked. “Sure,” I said coldly. No way was I forgiving this bitch.
“Violet...” she began... “I—I...”
I glared up at her. I didn't want to hear a word she said. I didn't give a shit, frankly. She looked away shyly. It looked like she was about to cry. Why?; I don't know. But it was damn annoying. “What!?!” I asked in a yell, standing. “What the hell is it that you have to say to me!?! I haven't talked to you since fucking college!!! What could you possibly have to say to me after you ruined the first functioning relationship I'd had since high school!?!” I growled.
Her bottom lip trembled, “Violet, I—I just, I didn't know.” She turned her bright blue eyes on me. I met her eyes, “bull shit.” The hurt in her eyes really made me feel bad. I'm not that cold and heartless, just pissed off and holding a grudge. I got up off the bed and walked over to the huge bay window. I sat down on the small bench and folded my hands in my lap. I stared at her reflection in the window. She was looking at the hardwood flooring in my room.
“I'm sorry Violet. But I really had no idea Matt was dating you. He never said anything. Carmi told me after, I—I slept with him. Violet, I didn't know!” she cried. I rolled my eyes, bitch. “Why should I believe you? Huh?” I asked, spinning to face her. My hands clenched into fists at my sides. “Why should I listen to a word you have to say!?! You ruined my life, I loved him! I really, really loved him!!! And you took that all away 'cause now I know he never really loved me! He just used me because he's a fucking jackass!!!” I was crying now, freely.
I didn't care that is was Tanner standing there watching me cry. I just needed to cry some more. I fell to my knees, hands covering my eyes. “Go—go get Shane, please,” I whispered between sobs. “O—okay, sure,” she said and then was gone.
I leaned against the wall, pulling my knees to my chest and crossing my arms on top of my knees and resting my head on my forearm. I continued crying, my shoulders shaking with each sob. My heart had been broken and it seemed unrepairable. It hurt so much to see Tanner. I wasn't even sure if I believed what she said, I didn't know what the hell to believe anymore.
Familiar arms wrapped around me and soft lips kissed my hair. Shane pulled me into his chest and he let me cry there. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders. He rubbed my upper-arm comfortingly while whispering in my ear. “It's okay Tabby,” he said softly, “I'm here for you.”
I stepped out of the shower and grabbed my jeans off the counter. I pulled on the tight black jeans and my green and black V. Pierce jersey. I pulled my messy dark brown hair into a ponytail. I applied some eyeliner and smoky dark green eyeshadow. I smoothed some clear lip gloss on my lips and pulled my belt through the loops on my jeans.
I stuck my hands in my pocket as I exited the bathroom. Shane and Carmichael were sitting on my bed, talking. “Hey Carmi,” I said with a slight smile. Carmi grinned at me, “Hey Vio. How was your shower?” she asked. I shrugged, “a shower,” I replied unenthusiastically. “We ready to go then?” Shane questioned. I nodded. Shane got up off my bed and walked over to my closet pulling out my favorite black formal button-up jacket. I smiled at him as he handed it to me.
I pulled it on and smiled my thanks to Shane. He nodded slightly then led Carmi and me out of my room. We jogged down the steps and heard yelling. “Shannon and Shelly,” Carmi muttered, rolling her eyes. I chuckled by Shane tensed up. I eyes him curiously and listened to the yelling, interested. “Fuck.” I whispered, recognizing one of the people yelling. Shane looked up the stairs at me and Carmi glanced between us, confused.
I pushed past Shane and walked through the kitchen to the entryway where Shelly, Shannon, Jeff, and Tanner where standing with...Matt. Big surprise. I stared at each of my friends intently. Trying to measure up the meaning of what was going on. Jeff looked pissed, Shan looked ready to claw Matt's hair out, Tanner looked hurt, and Shelly was livid with anger. I was shocked when she lunged forward, smacking Matt square in the jaw. My mouth fell open and I covered it with my hand. Astonished didn't even begin to cover how surprised I was.
Shelly was beating the fucking living shit out of Matt and I had to admit, I was enjoying seeing Matt get beat up by a blond; let alone a girl. Shannon finally pulled Shelly off of Matt and tried to calm her down; didn't work much. But now, I could see Shane and Jeff were getting really ticked off. “How dare you come to her home!!!” Shane yelled at the downed elder Hardy. Matt smirked, “fuck off Shane. She's mine,” he growled.
Shane was about to attack him as well when Carmi and I reached forward grabbing his arms and holding him back. “Don't do anything rash or stupid,” I whispered to him. He frowned but nodded seriously. “Good,” I murmured softly then looked up at Matt. “Go away Matt,” I told him sternly. He shook his head, but stood and started retreating. “At WrestleMania 25, you will be mine. That's all there is to it Baby V.” My skin crawled at the use of the nickname he had given me while we were dating.
My eyes narrowed. “Leave. Now. You son of a bitch before I beat the crap out of you, worse than Shelly's beating and the one I gave you last time,” I threatened. He cocked an eyebrow but slowly walked backwards to his car, got in, and drove off.
I let out a breath once he was gone. “C'mon, let's get out of here before it gets dark,” I said and everyone nodded in agreement. We got into our various cars and drove to the cemetery. We parked and started making our way to my brother's grave.
We returned home and we piled out of our cars. Everyone went inside except for Tanner. She went to get into her own car and leave, but I stopped her. Why? I had no idea at the time. “Tanner, wait,” I said reaching a hand out to her. She stopped and turned, tucking her blond hair behind her ears. “Um...yeah?” she replied uncertainly. “I—I'm sorry for snapping at you earlier. I believe you. So, we cool?” I apologized and looked at the ground, confused. I rubbed the back of my neck, not sure what to do.
“Yeah, Vio, we're cool,” she said with a kind smile. “Thanks,” I said relieved. She nodded then got into her car. She started the engine then rolled down the window, “call me if Matt's ever in town again. I want to kick his ass myself,” she said with a smirk, mischief gleaming in her bright blue eyes. I nodded, grinning, “wouldn't keep you out of the loop, now would I?” I laughed and she laughed as well as she reversed out of my driveway and drove off down the road.
I smiled after her care, hands on hips. I tilted my head up to the sky letting the wind wind through my hair. I let out a sigh then started walking toward the grove of trees to the west of my house. I walked around the perimeter of my property, just thinking. I didn't know what else to do. When I was little, Damien and I used to come here. It used to be my grandma's house. She died while I was in college and she left the house to me. I had always loved this house.
Anyways, when I was a kid/teenager I'd come here when I needed to cool off or think. Thoughts came easier to me when I was walking amongst the trees. Or I'd lay a blanket out and just stare up at the stars. It was a place of comfort for me. And comfort was definitely something I needed during all of this drama. But right now, I didn't want comfort from another person. I wanted to comfort myself with the knowledge that Matt and I breaking up was a good thing. Something that was meant to happen because he didn't really love me. And I'm finally starting to get that. Finally starting to understand that I can, in fact, love someone else after Matt.
Not every guy is gonna cheat on me with one of my old best friends. Only 1 out of 100. Sucks that that 1 out of 100 was the one I picked. Tells you how bad my choice in guys is. I stopped walking and just stood still. I lifted my head up and stared at the stars through the bare branches of the trees. Winter was ending and would soon be spring. There would be colors other than white and brown again in Cameron.
I ran a hand through my hair. I lowered my head when I heard footsteps approaching. “Hey, I thought I'd find ya out here.” It was Carmi. I smiled, “yep.” I replied, returning my head to the sky. Carmi walked up next to me and stopped. “Did she tell you?” she asked. “the part where she didn't know I was dating Matt or the she's sorry part?” I asked. Carmi shook her head, “she's the one who told Matt. About you....and my brother.” I looked at Carmi, surprised she hadn't kicked my ass yet since she obviously knew.
She was staring up at the sky too. “She walked into the house to find Shelly. Shelly's mom had told her she was staying at your place and that you were probably still out of town. She came into the kitchen, and there you were, making out with my brother on the kitchen floor,” Carmi stopped and I tensed myself in preparation for the yelling.
“Of all the places in your kitchen. Why the floor? Not the counter, or the table, or some other surface. God my brother sucks at being romantic,” Carmi asked rolling her eyes. I was shocked. She was okay with it??? What? Did I miss something? “Y-you're okay with it?” I asked her, still stunned beyond belief. She looked over at me confused, “of course I am. I've been waiting for my brother all these years to come tell me he finally kissed you, and when he actually does, no one tells me!” she said laughing.
“Well, I guess that's cause you didn't tell anybody. So, are you guys like secretly dating now, like you and Matt did for a while?” Carmi asked pointing at me and smirking. I swallowed. “Um, no...” I trailed off, unsure of how to really explain it all. “What do you mean 'no'?” Carmi didn't sound too happy.
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Tanner and I. In one room. Together. A-fucking-lone. Sooooooooooo awkward. “Um, Violet, can I sit... on the bed?” she asked. “Sure,” I said coldly. No way was I forgiving this bitch.
“Violet...” she began... “I—I...”
I glared up at her. I didn't want to hear a word she said. I didn't give a shit, frankly. She looked away shyly. It looked like she was about to cry. Why?; I don't know. But it was damn annoying. “What!?!” I asked in a yell, standing. “What the hell is it that you have to say to me!?! I haven't talked to you since fucking college!!! What could you possibly have to say to me after you ruined the first functioning relationship I'd had since high school!?!” I growled.
Her bottom lip trembled, “Violet, I—I just, I didn't know.” She turned her bright blue eyes on me. I met her eyes, “bull shit.” The hurt in her eyes really made me feel bad. I'm not that cold and heartless, just pissed off and holding a grudge. I got up off the bed and walked over to the huge bay window. I sat down on the small bench and folded my hands in my lap. I stared at her reflection in the window. She was looking at the hardwood flooring in my room.
“I'm sorry Violet. But I really had no idea Matt was dating you. He never said anything. Carmi told me after, I—I slept with him. Violet, I didn't know!” she cried. I rolled my eyes, bitch. “Why should I believe you? Huh?” I asked, spinning to face her. My hands clenched into fists at my sides. “Why should I listen to a word you have to say!?! You ruined my life, I loved him! I really, really loved him!!! And you took that all away 'cause now I know he never really loved me! He just used me because he's a fucking jackass!!!” I was crying now, freely.
I didn't care that is was Tanner standing there watching me cry. I just needed to cry some more. I fell to my knees, hands covering my eyes. “Go—go get Shane, please,” I whispered between sobs. “O—okay, sure,” she said and then was gone.
I leaned against the wall, pulling my knees to my chest and crossing my arms on top of my knees and resting my head on my forearm. I continued crying, my shoulders shaking with each sob. My heart had been broken and it seemed unrepairable. It hurt so much to see Tanner. I wasn't even sure if I believed what she said, I didn't know what the hell to believe anymore.
Familiar arms wrapped around me and soft lips kissed my hair. Shane pulled me into his chest and he let me cry there. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders. He rubbed my upper-arm comfortingly while whispering in my ear. “It's okay Tabby,” he said softly, “I'm here for you.”
I stepped out of the shower and grabbed my jeans off the counter. I pulled on the tight black jeans and my green and black V. Pierce jersey. I pulled my messy dark brown hair into a ponytail. I applied some eyeliner and smoky dark green eyeshadow. I smoothed some clear lip gloss on my lips and pulled my belt through the loops on my jeans.
I stuck my hands in my pocket as I exited the bathroom. Shane and Carmichael were sitting on my bed, talking. “Hey Carmi,” I said with a slight smile. Carmi grinned at me, “Hey Vio. How was your shower?” she asked. I shrugged, “a shower,” I replied unenthusiastically. “We ready to go then?” Shane questioned. I nodded. Shane got up off my bed and walked over to my closet pulling out my favorite black formal button-up jacket. I smiled at him as he handed it to me.
I pulled it on and smiled my thanks to Shane. He nodded slightly then led Carmi and me out of my room. We jogged down the steps and heard yelling. “Shannon and Shelly,” Carmi muttered, rolling her eyes. I chuckled by Shane tensed up. I eyes him curiously and listened to the yelling, interested. “Fuck.” I whispered, recognizing one of the people yelling. Shane looked up the stairs at me and Carmi glanced between us, confused.
I pushed past Shane and walked through the kitchen to the entryway where Shelly, Shannon, Jeff, and Tanner where standing with...Matt. Big surprise. I stared at each of my friends intently. Trying to measure up the meaning of what was going on. Jeff looked pissed, Shan looked ready to claw Matt's hair out, Tanner looked hurt, and Shelly was livid with anger. I was shocked when she lunged forward, smacking Matt square in the jaw. My mouth fell open and I covered it with my hand. Astonished didn't even begin to cover how surprised I was.
Shelly was beating the fucking living shit out of Matt and I had to admit, I was enjoying seeing Matt get beat up by a blond; let alone a girl. Shannon finally pulled Shelly off of Matt and tried to calm her down; didn't work much. But now, I could see Shane and Jeff were getting really ticked off. “How dare you come to her home!!!” Shane yelled at the downed elder Hardy. Matt smirked, “fuck off Shane. She's mine,” he growled.
Shane was about to attack him as well when Carmi and I reached forward grabbing his arms and holding him back. “Don't do anything rash or stupid,” I whispered to him. He frowned but nodded seriously. “Good,” I murmured softly then looked up at Matt. “Go away Matt,” I told him sternly. He shook his head, but stood and started retreating. “At WrestleMania 25, you will be mine. That's all there is to it Baby V.” My skin crawled at the use of the nickname he had given me while we were dating.
My eyes narrowed. “Leave. Now. You son of a bitch before I beat the crap out of you, worse than Shelly's beating and the one I gave you last time,” I threatened. He cocked an eyebrow but slowly walked backwards to his car, got in, and drove off.
I let out a breath once he was gone. “C'mon, let's get out of here before it gets dark,” I said and everyone nodded in agreement. We got into our various cars and drove to the cemetery. We parked and started making our way to my brother's grave.
We returned home and we piled out of our cars. Everyone went inside except for Tanner. She went to get into her own car and leave, but I stopped her. Why? I had no idea at the time. “Tanner, wait,” I said reaching a hand out to her. She stopped and turned, tucking her blond hair behind her ears. “Um...yeah?” she replied uncertainly. “I—I'm sorry for snapping at you earlier. I believe you. So, we cool?” I apologized and looked at the ground, confused. I rubbed the back of my neck, not sure what to do.
“Yeah, Vio, we're cool,” she said with a kind smile. “Thanks,” I said relieved. She nodded then got into her car. She started the engine then rolled down the window, “call me if Matt's ever in town again. I want to kick his ass myself,” she said with a smirk, mischief gleaming in her bright blue eyes. I nodded, grinning, “wouldn't keep you out of the loop, now would I?” I laughed and she laughed as well as she reversed out of my driveway and drove off down the road.
I smiled after her care, hands on hips. I tilted my head up to the sky letting the wind wind through my hair. I let out a sigh then started walking toward the grove of trees to the west of my house. I walked around the perimeter of my property, just thinking. I didn't know what else to do. When I was little, Damien and I used to come here. It used to be my grandma's house. She died while I was in college and she left the house to me. I had always loved this house.
Anyways, when I was a kid/teenager I'd come here when I needed to cool off or think. Thoughts came easier to me when I was walking amongst the trees. Or I'd lay a blanket out and just stare up at the stars. It was a place of comfort for me. And comfort was definitely something I needed during all of this drama. But right now, I didn't want comfort from another person. I wanted to comfort myself with the knowledge that Matt and I breaking up was a good thing. Something that was meant to happen because he didn't really love me. And I'm finally starting to get that. Finally starting to understand that I can, in fact, love someone else after Matt.
Not every guy is gonna cheat on me with one of my old best friends. Only 1 out of 100. Sucks that that 1 out of 100 was the one I picked. Tells you how bad my choice in guys is. I stopped walking and just stood still. I lifted my head up and stared at the stars through the bare branches of the trees. Winter was ending and would soon be spring. There would be colors other than white and brown again in Cameron.
I ran a hand through my hair. I lowered my head when I heard footsteps approaching. “Hey, I thought I'd find ya out here.” It was Carmi. I smiled, “yep.” I replied, returning my head to the sky. Carmi walked up next to me and stopped. “Did she tell you?” she asked. “the part where she didn't know I was dating Matt or the she's sorry part?” I asked. Carmi shook her head, “she's the one who told Matt. About you....and my brother.” I looked at Carmi, surprised she hadn't kicked my ass yet since she obviously knew.
She was staring up at the sky too. “She walked into the house to find Shelly. Shelly's mom had told her she was staying at your place and that you were probably still out of town. She came into the kitchen, and there you were, making out with my brother on the kitchen floor,” Carmi stopped and I tensed myself in preparation for the yelling.
“Of all the places in your kitchen. Why the floor? Not the counter, or the table, or some other surface. God my brother sucks at being romantic,” Carmi asked rolling her eyes. I was shocked. She was okay with it??? What? Did I miss something? “Y-you're okay with it?” I asked her, still stunned beyond belief. She looked over at me confused, “of course I am. I've been waiting for my brother all these years to come tell me he finally kissed you, and when he actually does, no one tells me!” she said laughing.
“Well, I guess that's cause you didn't tell anybody. So, are you guys like secretly dating now, like you and Matt did for a while?” Carmi asked pointing at me and smirking. I swallowed. “Um, no...” I trailed off, unsure of how to really explain it all. “What do you mean 'no'?” Carmi didn't sound too happy.
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